Sad Sad Story

My little sister told me a sad story last night of a girl that threw away her baby!  That is right people, a girl that she used to have class with delivered a baby boy in her bathtub and then put him in a plastic bag and threw him away in a dumpster across town! 

She then proceded to go to work. 

Here is the worst part, in Kansas there is a safe haven law that allows parents to drop off babies up to 45 days old at any fire department, medical facility or health department.  Why in the world would you drop the baby in a dumpster when you know there are NO consequences to dropping the baby off at a place where it can be cared for?

Call me cruel but I'm all for having this girl steralized while fully concious, this is the extent to which I have mentally punished her at this point, but I'm sure I will think of plenty more ways in which she should pay for her actions!  She is being charged with attempted murder, I'm not sure what the sentence for that is but I hope she is too old to procreate if/when she is released!

I was so upset when Lauren told me this story last night!  Who would do something like this.  People are struggling everyday to have children of their own, tons of people looking to adopt infants and she chooses to let hers die!  I'm getting mad just thinking about it again!  And then there is the part of me that asks why?!?!  Why can a girl like this have a baby!?! Luke and I would be GREAT parents (in my opinion) and we have trouble with the whole pregnancy/miscarriage thing and then someone like this is able to get pregnant, stay pregnant and deliver a healthy baby only to throw it away!

I saw this picture this morning and it was a nice reminder that we aren't being punished and when we do have a little one the reward will be so sweet!

I'm learning to live with life not being fair, but sometimes it just makes me so darn mad!

Then I just remember all of the things I have to be thankful for and life doesn't seem quite so bad anymore!

Happy Hump Day

-Morgan

while Buddy was working on a hot spot........

Luke and I played.  

Does that make us bad parents?

We spent Friday night in Norman with Virgil and MaryLou (Luke's Grandparents).  We had so much fun with them.  MaryLou sent us home with some amazing silver pieces so I now need to have a dinner party!  

Saturday we headed to Stillwater bright and early!  We spent the day enjoying our favorite things in Stillwater.  We shopped at Chris's, checked out the house decs at the Greek houses, enjoyed cheese fries and burgers from Eskimo Joe's and of course cheered for the Cowboys.  Although the game didn't turn out the way we would have liked we had a BLAST!  Plus I got both Braums and Panera while in Oklahoma.  It was a great weekend.

enjoy some pics I stole from Beka - I left my camera in the car all weekend - oops.



my two favorite girls!




Luke and Jesse




view from our seats




Becky, Beka, Me - enjoying our time together!



- Morgan

Not everyone had such a Great Weekend.........

Poor Buddy chewed a hot spot on his back side that resulted in a cone for the remainder of the week.  The vet seems to think it is a combination of allergies and being in a new place for the weekend.    Poor Guy!

We have to be out of town again this weekend for a wedding in Dallas so we aren't sure what this guy will be doing.  He can't come to Dallas (I already checked with the hotel ;))  and we aren't sure we are ready to send him back to the vet.  He may get to spend a weekend at home with the pricey pet sitter, spoiled little doggie.

Hope your weekend was better than Buddy's

-Morgan

Updates........

1. Grandpa is doing GREAT! He was discharged on Wednesday afternoon and was out driving his land that evening. Stubborn old mad couldn't wait to check the fields :).  He didn't have to have dialysis this time around and for that we are so grateful! 

2. We are leaving in about an hour for O.K.L.A.H.O.M.A.  We will spend tonight with Luke's grandparents in Norman and head to Stillwater early Saturday morning for the game!  Can't wait to see our favorite okies!

3. Work is going well, corporate came for a visit yesterday and we seem to have passed with flying colors!  We needed a good report after months of playing catch up.  My job is SAFE!

4. Still don't know the gender of baby Walters (my niece/nephew) which is driving me nuts! I don't know how Katie is handling it, she doesn't do well with secrets/surprises like me :)  I also haven't bought anything for the baby and I LOVE a little retail therapy so this is saying alot. Everytime I see a cute little baby something I have to hold off on buying it.  Oh this child will be spoiled!!!! And I'm competing for favorite aunt with some pretty tough competition.

5. Next weekend is Bill and Erica's Wedding!  Can't wait!  Hoping to see lots of MN people in Dallas!

6. Girls weekend plans are being finalized and reservations have been made.  Only a few short weeks away, did I mention retail therapy! oh yes, and lots of food and girl talk.  BLISS!

7.  Fall has officially reached Louisiana!  The weather has been great, now if we could just get some rain life would be golden!

Ok so there it is, what has been and is happing in our world over the past/next few weeks!  Have a wonderful weekend!  Enjoy some RANDOM pictures, Luke and I have been going through old stuff and cleaning out pictures and I came across some that just make me smile.

Kato enjoying the beautiful weather :)



isn't she special



My one true love :)



some of my favorite Okies :)

the soon to be newlyweds with the soon to be parents!

- Morgan

Grandpa Neufeld

First, let me introduce you to my grandpa, my one and only!  He is the adorable guy in the bow tie.  Isn't he just the cutest grandpa a girl could ask for?  I guess since I only got 1 I got the best there is.  Ignore everyone else, it looks like we were talking or something :)

My grandpa is sick, he is in the hospital in Wichita, KS.  10 hours away from where I live :(  Last time grandpa was in the hospital I worked just a few miles away so I got to go and spend my lunch hour with him.  Let me give you some background on grandpa's history.

Grandpa is a farmer, and being in KS wheat is his main crop.  As he got older he started having to interupt harvest to go to the bathroom so the summer of 1994 he stopped drinking during the long days on the tractor.  This worked, and he was able to avoid those dreaded bathroom breaks, what he also managed to do was damage his kidneys so much so that they shut down!  He spent a few weeks in the hospital being nursed back to health and promising to drink more when it is 110 degrees outside.

Fastforward 13 years to June of 2007, grandpa does the same thing but much worse.  He doesn't feel good for a few days and before you know it he has lost muscle control and is being rushed to the ER.  He spent a few weeks in the ICU and then a few more weeks in a rehab wing of St. Francis in Wichita.  When he was discharged he was still on dialysis and the Doctors fully expected him to be dependent on dialysis for the remainder of his life.  But, by some miracle his kidneys regained function and he was given a 3rd chance.

Fastforward a few years and grandma and grandpa are in Russia visiting the villages that our ancestors lived in.  They saw the village that my great grandpa and great great grandpa lived in before coming to KS.  Grandpa was not fond of the bathroom situation and the bland food so he stoped eating and drinking.  Not a good decision.  He gets sick. In Russia.  Grandma makes a good call and ends the trip early.  They frantically make their way back to the good ole U.S of A where they are greated by some unhappy folks(my parents/aunts and uncles) who insist that grandpa go to the ER, he refuses and they take him home.  After a nights sleep those unhappy folks make him go to the ER where he is admitted and has been since Saturday.  I talked with him on the phone for awhile on Sunday and he is in good spirits.  He always is, thats one thing I love about him.  He is pretty darn honest about his situation and why he is there but you just can't be mad at him when he is stuck in the hospital!  So, long story short Grandpa could use your prayers, thoughts, etc. for the next few days.  If all goes well and his kidneys do as they are supposed to we are hoping for a Wednesday discharge!!! 

4 days until Stillwater!!! 3 until Norman!!!

Have a great Tuesday

-Morgan 

Catching Up

It's been awhile. 

Luke and I have been busy doing nothing these past few weeks.  We have been able to enjoy the last two weekends at home with 0 plans.  We have watched LOTS of football, worn alot of OSU orange and spent endless hours on the back deck enjoying this Louisiana weather. 

This past weekend I finally got my embroidery/sewing machine up and working.  I only bought red thread just incase I was terrible.  I embroidered our initials on a blanket we keep in the living room, my initials on a scarf and a few other odds and ends.  I LOVE it.  I can't wait until I have a little one to do this for, as it may be a little odd for Luke and I to begin wearing embroidered/monogramed clothing.  I'm a huge fan of the monogram and can't wait to have someone to use this machine on.  The good news is that my little niece/nephew will be here in April so I can spoil it rotten with cute little outfits/blankets/etc. (we need to hurry up and find out the gender of this baby, I hate calling it, it!)  I've found some software that I need/want.  It lets you design your own patterns and then saves them to a memory card, I think that I'll splurge on this before too long. 

My next project is curtains for our bedroom, and if those turn out allright I wouldn't mind replacing the ones our living room!  As you can tell I have BIG plans for this little machine!

We are getting excited for our next few weekends.  Stillwater this coming weekend for homecoming!  Did you know it is "America's Greatest Homecoming"?!?!  We sure seem to think so and can't wait for some time in Oklahoma.  While up north I WILL eat some ice cream from Braum's and get soup and a sandwich at Panera.  There are many good things about the south but geeze, how do these people live with out Braum's and Panera?!?!?  We are squeezing in some time with Luke's grandparnents on Friday night and will be back in time for work on Monday morning. AHHH, I can't wait!

Then, the following weekend we are going to be in Dallas for a wedding.  Luke is an usher in Bill and Erica's wedding.  Bill was Luke's roomate his first year at Minnesota State.  I got to know Bill and Erica after I moved to Minnesota for Luke's second year.  We can't wait for this wedding and are so happy for Bill and Erica.

This brings us to the first weekend in November and "GIRLS WEEKEND"!!! I'm so ready for some time with the ladies.  We are't going too far but plan to spend the weekend in Shreveport eating, shopping, and relaxing!

Can you believe we are already planning into November!  This past year has gone so FAST I can't belive it.  As of this week we have been living in Ruston for 1 year!  I hope the next few go a little slower or Luke will be graduating and looking for jobs before we know it, and I'm not sure I'm ready to leave Ruston just yet!

Here's to a great week!

-Morgan

Attempted Family Pictures

After church this morning we decided to give the new camera a try.  Here is our sad attempt at a good family picture.  Good thing we are having a professional help us out before it's time for Christmas cards.

 

This last one is my favorite.  Maybe not the best picture ever but if you look carefully you can see both dogs decided to attack me at the same time!

Hope you had a Great Weekend.

-Morgan

It's Time

After our second miscarriage I haven't been all that excited to begin trying again. Of course I want that baby so badly, but I've been too scared to really want it. What scares me the most is that I can't get excited for a positive pregnancy test because I'm too scared it will all end terribly.


The first positive came out of the blue after trying for 5 months. We had kinda given up and just decided we would wait it out until we could go see a specialist around the 6 month mark. Then, I got sick took the test and wham! here we are celebrating, naming a baby and dreaming about a nursery for a month. And then I have a little spotting, everyone says not to worry but this is different I can tell. The Dr. squeezes me in and takes what felt like gallons of blood. Sent me home on bed rest and said call back in a few days. The few days just happened to be the worst cramps and bleeding I have ever experienced in my life. I knew what had happened, but I was able to keep a little hope that maybe I was wrong. The Dr. called Monday to confirm what I had suspected. Miscarriage #1. He gave us the go ahead to try again right away since we were only a little over 7 weeks.

A little over 7 weeks later I'm sick again and complaining because I just want a normal cycle like all the statistics say I should have. I can't figure out what is going on until I take yet another test, and so begins our blissfully celebration. We are absolutely certain that this pregnancy will go well, statistics show that 85% of women have a healthy pregnancy following a miscarriage. Well, we didn't get too celebrate too long because just a few days after the positive test the spotting begins again. This time I didn't have to wait as long for the blood work, the Dr. was able to confirm on day 1 that this was the beginning of Miscarriage #2. This was also the start of what was supposed to be a great weekend. Our friends were getting married; we were going to be in Hesston to tell our families in person. Nope, all our families got were us, sad, depressed and me still suffering from the bleeding, cramping and morning sickness that go along with a miscarriage.

So here we are 12 weeks later and I have finally come to terms with the fact that I have to get another positive to get the baby. I have to take that risk that things may not go as planned. I've convinced myself that there is a light at the end of this tunnel. Even if worst case scenario, our next pregnancy ends in miscarriage it will be #3. This is the magical number in the infertility world, after miscarriage #3 you are diagnosed with recurrent miscarriages and can begin the testing to figure out what is wrong.

So, moral of the story is that I'm going to face this next few months with happy, excited, anticipation. And when we get that next positive I'm going to allow myself to be happy, to dream about colors for the nursery and names for my sweet little baby. I've decided that this is the path that I will be taking. It has taken me awhile to make this decision, but I'm sticking to it.

Wish me luck!


- Morgan