Tuesday, December 6, 2011

Love, Life, Work and William

Ok, it's time I sit down and right some real words, coherent sentences about mommy hood.

I feel like the past week has really given me some perspective on life.  Last Wednesday I returned to work full time.  This was one of the hardest, yet most rewarding things I have done in my 26 years of life.  

Let's first talk about why it was hard :

I think that sums it up.  
I had to leave my little man with an almost stranger for an entire day!  His happiness is the most important thing to me and I worried about how this new person would handle him.  Would she know to give him gripe water if he was gassy, would she even know if he was gassy.  Would she know that he likes to rock for awhile before going down for a nap.  How would she know if he was hungry, mad, dirty?! On and on and on....  I worried constantly about what could go wrong.  You get the picture.  Trusting someone else to care for my baby was hard.  I had been his care provider for 10 weeks and I wasn't sure I was going to be able to share that role, let alone be away from my boy for 8 hours at a time!

And now, let's discuss why returning to work was a good thing:

Once again it's this little guy!  He really does make everything better.  I know that sounds crazy, how could leaving him with a sitter make my day better?  William makes working so much more meaningful than it ever was before.  My time seems more valuable now, my first weekend home with him was probably the best I've ever had.  Each second I get to spend with him I cherish even more than I did when I was his sole care provider.  I didn't realize it was possible to love my time with him more than I already did.  I spent all weekend and every evening for the past week soaking up my little man.  I spend 8 hours a day showing off pictures and bragging about how amazing my baby is and I really wouldn't trade our situation for anything in the world.  I have lots of friends and family that choose to stay home with their little ones and I have great respect for them.  I did it for 10 weeks and wouldn't give that time back for anything.  However, for me returning to work gave me such a sense of pride and accomplishment.  I grew up in a home with 2 working parents, and I think that I am a strong independent woman today because of the example that my mom provided for me.  I want that for William.  I want him to see that a woman is more than just a care taker.  I want him to know that before his daddy went to work full-time it was mommy that supported the family.  I want William to grow up with a strong female presence in his life, I want him to respect me and his future spouse for our hard work and determination.  I want William to know that the things he has in life didn't come without a price and that I would do anything to give him the best!

I also want him to know that his daddy works just as hard as mommy.  He puts in more time and energy working multiple jobs, while being a full time student to provide for our family.

None of this would be possible if it wasn't for miss Allison.  Luke and I have been blessed with the most amazing woman.  She has opened her home to our little man.  He is the only baby she keeps and he gets to spend all day being loved on by her and her 2 boys.  Allison keeps me updated with texts throughout the day and I know that without her updates I would go a little crazy.  I thought that trusting another person to care for William would be impossible but I've found a person that I trust, she is raising adorable little boys herself and getting to see William enjoy her and her boys each morning when we drop him off melts my heart!!

Yesterday when I dropped him off and handed him to Allison he gave her a big ole grin and I knew once again that I was doing the right thing!  

Plus - she made us cookies and sent them home with William on Monday.  I'm pretty sure that wasn't in our agreement but there are NO complaints from me!

Today is Wednesday, William's short day with miss Allison and since Luke is in the middle of his comprehensive exams I get to bring my little man to work with me for a few hours this afternoon and  you have NO idea how excited I am to show him off!!

So, long story short.  For me returning to work has been a blessing.  I know it doesn't work that way for everyone and I'm sure someday when we can afford it I may even cut back my work hours, but I do feel at this moment very happy with my decision and that is more than I was asking for just a few short weeks ago!

Have a wonderful last few days of the week!

Tuesday, November 29, 2011

Month 2 in Pictures

Because I'm going back to work tomorrow and I don't feel like doing much else but cuddling with my sweet little man I'll update you on month 2 with pictures.  And, don't pretend to be hurt or offended! I know that's all you care about anyway!

cutest pumpkin ever

6 weeks old with grammy

look at those cheeks
showing off my skills - you can"t tell but he has a firm hold on the ring on the toy! 

checking out uncle Phil

cheering for the Pokes with Mims

trying to keep up

we played HARD!

Williams favorite place to nap!
game time

nap time

we get lots and lots of tummy time

helping dad clean

playing with aunt Mary

favorite time of the day for the Simmering family!  William takes over our bed every morning while daddy gets ready for work
trying out my table and chair from Papa

more tummy time

can't even believe it's been 2 month!!!!

Monday, October 31, 2011


I still can't believe it has been over a month since our little man was born.  We celebrated with a little photo shoot :)

1st month pictures

Here is an assortment of pictures from Williams first month!

New Born Pictures

Having a friend that is a photographer is GREAT, but having a friend that is an incredibly talented photographer is even better!!  DeAnn came and took Williams newborn pictures when he was 6 days old.  She is AMAZING!!!  If you are in the Ruston area and want some great pictures check out DeAnn Arnold Photography, you will be SO happy that you did!

Finally Home

Luke and I were ready to head home after our first night at the hospital.  Needless to say you don't get much sleep when there is a nurse in your room to check your vitals every 2 hours and then a different nurse checking on baby every 2 hours.  You would think that they would coordinate with each other so they interrupted your precious sleep as little as possible.  It wasn't only the nurses that woke us up.  There were babies crying, machines whizzing and the darn blood pressure machine has a squeaky wheel so you could hear it coming up and down the hall! Sadly we weren't able to leave with Mr. William until he was 48 hours old so we roughed it out a second night, which made it that much better when we finally arrived home.

William did GREAT at home, and we were all able to get some sleep!  The next morning he got to meet his aunt Lauren and Taylor which he was very excited about.  Cole even stopped by to watch a little football with him!  Here are pictures from his first full day home.

 cuddle time with aunt Lauren
 rocking with grandma Carol
 photo shoot with the aunts :)
 showing off their game day gear
 enjoying the OSU game with Cole
 nap time with aunt Taylor